Monday, July 19, 2010
@ 8:01 AM
HELLLO ! i know i know ! i been ages since i blog again ! sorry lurhs ! school strt . busy week for me . Performance on next tuesdays during assembly, worry much .hahaha . I hold on to a ballon for many months . Putting my all hoped . Trying hard . Giving everything i can for it . But now i decided to let this balloon go . My hope, my confidence , my enthusiasm everything . and this balloon is my cca . There many reason to it . and idk what to say already . May be there's too much disappointment in it . Maybe there's many things that i can't wish prefect for . But i already tired my very best . and yet im getting this shit . Is this fair to me? then why can't i be the one sitting by the side shaking my leg . and the credit all go to me . and not someone who had put so much effort in it . I guess there's nothing to say about it . If one day i skipped cca. Means , i had enough of everything alr.
Saturday, July 3, 2010
@ 9:33 PM
Hello! I know i know, i haven been blogging ! . Well , life is getting busier after school reopen . All i wish was sometime to sleep. I dont even have the mood to switch on the computer and just sleep . Imagine how tired i was. I sprain my ankle yesterday when i was in an amazing race . How amazing isn't . Although my group didn't win anything, but i was happy that my group bonds alot! . Going to toliet at fast speed . Eating together . Laughing like there's no tomorrow. Well, but it's also the first time that i lost to unwillingly . Cause i know i can win . ); fucks . Okays fine . It's actually not i can win anot . Just , because of a monster . That why . But still we went shopping in the end . Thanks for being our motivation . HAHAHAHAHA . saying about this . I heard SYF went quite well . Congrats,
JORDAN&RANDY . HHAHHAHA . Okays . So yesterday there's many event . Our card were charge in KM alr . There SYF . There's NDP reheasal . There's amazing race . There's cosplay going on somewhere . Well . So now im walking in a limp . Cause i have muscle achs all over me. and and injured ankle . Idk if's it sprain anot . Okays . BTW . stc went well . Alots of scandal ! . haahahaaha okays but still overall fun . My group won the best group quite surprising . Cause it is. Gtg then bye ! .
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Have you ever feel so shitty all of the sudden . Have you suddenly thought that you're just a doll in everyone eyes . After using you it's okays . The worst thing you don't even know that you are being used. Idc who's reading this . I only know how i feel now . idk. Maybe in every game there's a chance to restart. But you know you can't get it , you should just give up . In life , I have many things to say . i have many things to grumble about . But guess what ? i trust no one . My parents are alway saying bye bye to me. How am i suspose to share with them . My brothers? they will only think this is some child's play . Yes, maybe in all of eyes you guys are just using me and stuff . But im trying real hard to show you guys that i can do it . Sometimes, i feel like giving up and being so sick to try again and again . Does trying hard solve everything ? No . If by trying hard solve everything , why are people dieing of overwork? They are working hard right ? So why they die ? i bet they did'nt even want to die cause they still have their family behind. So what for working so hard? We have to die one say isn't it. The world is pissing me off . I'm getting tired. Cause the world seems so unfair . I know i know , it's never fair . But Nvrm. I hate the world . I hate myself.
YINGTONG! 
